Happy has five letters, pizza has five...coincidence?

I know it's important to exercise and eat healthy especially with a disease that weight is a factor. Coincidentally I am pre-diabetic on top of the PCOS that I have. So you can imagine that it's really hard to keep focused. It is confusing to think that well I could have some strawberries or and orange; and then I remember that those are too sugary. So while in fact I can have them and they are healthy I still have to have fruits in moderation. A snack I find particularly not dreadful to have every morning or every other morning is plain non fat yogurt, granola, and a small amount of fruit. I find that this helps with the "bitter" taste of the plain yogurt and I quite enjoy the crunch. Unfortunately this morning R and I were running late. We had no time to eat breakfast so we settled for gas station food. Suddenly as I walked through the door I saw one of my biggest nightmares. A mouthwatering cheese, sausage, and egg smothered breakfast pizza. IT IS MY WEAKNESS! So while the thought crossed in my mind "If you're truly hungry you would be willing to eat something healthy...if not then it is a craving." I knew in the back of my head I shouldn't grab for those slices...but what did I do? I grabbed them and savored every moment of eating them. Yes I feel guilty. Yes the thought of giving in and succumbing to the craving is going to bother me all day. I'm human and I turn the floor to you. In the comment section tell me what is your worst craving and what you did when faced with the choice to eat it or not? - Love Sav

Leaky cyst and the birth control that could be helping?

Yesterday was difficult. Plain and simple, I've been dealing with an Cyst on my left ovary that just started "leaking" according to my doctor. I mean really? What the hell does that mean besides it hurts. Put it in idiot terms for me. So not only am I going to be stuck in the fog that I'm in; you're also telling me I'm going to be in a bit of pain and to take some aspirin. I never quite understood why when it comes to feminine problems that there is this stigma that you're supposed to be strong all the time. That it is weak to show pain...especially about child birth. I've never been through child birth myself but I have had kidney stones and have also had cervical contractions. The contractions were due largely in part by the insertion of the new "Skyla" Birth control I had put in by my doctor. Apparently the nurses forgot to tell me by phone to take a pain medication before coming in because it was going to hurt. I wasn't told that they were going to have to dilate my cervix and that a possible reaction was cervix contractions that could last a week or more. Let me tell you, they did! I went to work, school, made dinner, tried to live life under the fog that I was supposed to be brave and fine. I was supposed to ignore the pain I was in. I called my mother (the wonderful woman that she is), she told me "Honey, I've had three kids I know how contractions feel". So with my heating pad, water bottle, fuzzy blanket, nook, and Netflix in tow I went to bed and stayed there for a while. I started to avoid any confrontation with anyone, just kept sleeping. Now mind you I was given a muscle relaxant which thankfully did it's job for the most part. I also had a hand to squeeze. We'll call him "R" for the sake of his privacy ( and he likes the movie Warm Bodies").  R has been the calm after the storm, and during. I take a lot of my frustrations and pain out on him and don't even realize it until after the episode is over with. He didn't even mind when I would wake him up at 3:00 in the morning squeezing his arm, butt, or shoulder...whatever I could grab to alleviate some of the pain I was feeling. Fortunately I have been told that my Angry Uterus has finally accepted my Skyla. Unfortunately during the ultra sound to check if it was accepted they had apparently found the leaking. The Ultra Sound technician was nice when I walked in the room and was telling me I never had to worry about filling my bladder because I have a retroverted and retroflexed uterus. Well that was good news I laughed, no more having to pace in the busy waiting room full of water up to my eyes! Then the technician got a little quiet and was just focusing on her job. Later the doctor was asking me if I had pain or any odd symptoms. *A little side note* I am a huge doctor butter-upper as my mother calls me. She always tells me I put on the biggest bravest face and always water down my problems. So naturally I said "Well I have been having pain but I just attributed it to my PCOS and cranky ovaries". The doctor smiled and told me she was going to show me and R my ultra sound. I don't know about you, but when I look at an ultra sound...I seriously have no idea what I am looking at. She tried explaining to us what was going on and told me that I have two bigger cysts on both ovaries and the nonchalant little ones here and there. Okay I knew about the two bigger ones and had exploratory and possible removal of them (that never happened). Well apparently with this new birth control it might have started shrinking and "popping" the cysts I guess. I mean at least that's what I got out of the conversation. So while it sounds scary and is painful it's a small blessing in disguise, if it doesn't get infected. So we wait...

Artist: Jillian Fleck

~ As always I am not a doctor, nor a medical professional. I am a fighter of PCOS and here to offer my advice, support, and graphics. ~

This is a poster that I made describing a little of the problems that can arise from PCOS. Please feel free to use this image as long as I get credit. It's important to spread awareness!